"NO MORE!" i couldn't believe those words had come out of my mouth. i loved Jesse i knew i did. but when she began touching me i liked it. and it just reminded me of all the times my father had tried to seduce me and persuade me to like the things he was doing to me. i tried to say something to Jesse but i couldn't. my heart was pounding and my hands were shaking. she hates me she hates me i know she does,..."Jesse I'm so sorry..i just..i don't know please forgive me." she made her way back to me and sat next to me. but she made sure to give me my space i started to cry. she found me disgusting and worthless i knew she would. I'm nothing but a piece of trash to be used over and over again. no one with any common sense would love me. they would see how messed up and undeserving i am of their friendship and love. i feel like dying...i stood up and began to walk away from Jesse but she grab my hand and wouldn't let go.